A Lent buddy of mine is sending me a question a week to consider during these forty days leading up to Easter.
The latest:
What is your favorite question in the Bible? Least favorite? Most powerful? Most reassuring?
We agreed the answers would require a measure of time to sit with and listen for Divine Guidance though an easy favorite popped right into my selfish, self-focused, self-obsessed, greedy mind.
Jesus asked it to a few, "What would you like me to do for you?"
Way to go, Angela. (In case it lands as answer to the first question, I hope He smiled.)
This morning the next answer jumped off the page.
Then one of the twelve, whose name was Judas Iscariot, went to the chief priests
and said, "What will you give me if I deliver him over to you?"*
These two verses are so troubling. "One of the twelve" means Judas was in the inner circle of the Son of God for three years. He watched Jesus heal the lame, sick, unhealthy by touch and word. He saw thousands of hungry sermon-listeners fed to full of barely an appetizer broke by Jesus' hands. He observed the wind, and waves die down in a tumultuous storm on a lake by Jesus' rebuke. He smelled the body of Lazarus, four days dead, when it came alive and walked out of a burial tomb at Jesus' command. He listened to Jesus teach the truths and heart of God which astonished the crowds with no notes. He heard Jesus pray for God's chosen people, future followers, the other eleven and for him. He felt Jesus' hands on his dirty feet when He humbly washed them. He looked into the eyes of the long-awaited Savior in the flesh and was loved. He even greeted Him with a kiss, the most intimate expression on their last encounter.
Don't even get me started on the way he "went to the chief priests". The chief priests? The highest-ranking religious leaders? These who earlier that day had "gathered and plotted together in order to arrest Jesus by stealth and kill Him."** Plotted together to arrest a man by stealth and kill him? Excuse me?! Where is that written in the Bible as part of the chief priests' job description, acceptable to God?
Back to the question - the terrible question. One later regretted (understatement), resulting in suicide. Who could bear the consequences of it? Were the thirty pieces of silver he gained actually enough satisfaction for the trade? Apparently so.
We are in the thick of Holy Week now, no turning back. As stated in my last post, the most important week of the year - it truly holds everything.
Kate Bowler put it this way, "Holy Week is a horror movie. And somehow, it's still holy. If it were a movie, we'd all be screaming at the characters: 'DON'T GO IN THERE!' But...in they go."
Isn't that the truth? We're going in too if we dare.
Let's.
Holy Week brings up a lot of questions worthy of our consideration. On this day, Spy Wednesday, the worst - in my opinion written above - can only lead a deep thinker to the obvious self-reflecting follow-ups.
"What would you sell Jesus for?"Money?
Power?
Safety?
Security?
Family?
I shudder to think what this heart is capable of here. But I must.
It's good to sit in it, this week in particular. Perhaps a set-up, preparation of the soul, expectant for the gift of newness promised just days away.
Join me?
Just for a little while...because Sunday is coming!
*Matthew 26:14-15
**Matthew 26:3-4